PLEASE SAVE ME PLEASE!!!?

Right now, I feel so down, I feel hopeless. I don't care anymore about anything, even my artwork, which is why I have been sloppy and dragging in it. I used to have a dear friend from here, and he just went up and left me, like I never mattered at all. And it really hurts. Why am I so easy to leave? Why am I so stupid as to think that anyone would give a sh!t about me? I know they are some, which may comment on this journal, but I mean, the ones that I get the closest to, just up and leave me. I really don't understand why. Perhaps, I am not pretty enough for them to be their friend, I don't know. I notice that I am declining in life, and soon there will be nothing left at all. If the person who left me and pretty much doesn't talk to me anymore, you know who you are, please leave a comment, telling me why its so easy to leave me. I sick to death of it, I don't care about my life anymore. I don't care about what happens to me, and I think I am on the brink of a mental breakdown, you wait and see, it'll happen knowing my luck. It seems everyone I have ever loved, has forsaken me, even God at this point. So who do I turn to? No one...no one.